I don't know why the change in regimen is making me feel so antsy. If it is tougher to deal with, I will still deal with it. I just don't know what to expect at the moment. I think I will be better tomorrow once the whole thing is behind me. I only have 4 total treatments on this part of the regimen and then I will be DONE. I can't imagine anything more exciting than having survived chemo, except maybe surviving cancer in general.
I had an incident today that might be adding to my anxiety. I have tried, very hard I might add, to make sure that I don't make anyone uncomfortable with my bald head. I know I am really self-conscious about this even though everyone who has encountered it has said I have a wonderful head for being bald. I even thanked my mom for giving me such a great head. That being said, however, I very rarely leave the house without my head covered. Today I went to go upstairs to grab a book and there were children walking up my walkway. I was uncovered. They knocked on my door and said to me "GO Bruins!" They were neighborhood children, none older than 5, so I stooped to talk to them and asked them about how much they love the Bruins. Things got very quiet very quickly once I went to the door and I was grateful for the moms coming. I wanted to apologize to them but didn't since I didn't want it to appear to be an issue. I certainly hope neither of them has to explain to their children tonight why Mrs. Shapiro doesn't have any hair. I know...it's my issue.
I must call my mother. I have not spoken to her for a couple of weeks and she had my sister text me to see if she could visit with us in mid-July. I really need to get back to her before I forget. Things don't stay in my head for very long now-a-days.
Keeping the faith! :~)
Kim
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